Speckled Space

Eyes o p e n

speckled space

eyes closed

speckled space


It begins to shape you
It turns and spins your core
Captured in anatomy’s hate
Soaked with the fear of knowledge
Shadows of hope

floating hallow

Knowing that this may be a part of you and become you and live in you and
LeaveNOspace

A poem

April is poetry month. So I will share a poem.

A Good Word

Dreaming of long strolls
park benches
sounds that bring about emotion
any emotion
even if I can't romanticize anymore
I can feel
sorrow
friends who leave
loves who can't be loved
hope
tomorrow must come
maybes sometimes become yes
a good word
yes

Blueberry granola

I made this granola last week and it was delicious! I doubled the recipe. I took this recipe from Everyday food and added the walnuts and cinnamon. Give it a try and tell me what you think.
Ingredients

Makes 4 cups
2 cups old-fashioned rolled oats
1/2 cup sweetened shredded coconut
1/2 cup sliced almonds
1/2 cup chopped walnuts
1 teaspoon cinnamon
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
2 tablespoons honey
1 cup dried blueberries
Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. On a large rimmed baking sheet, toss oats, coconut, and almonds. In a small bowl, stir together oil and honey. Pour over oat mixture and toss. Bake, tossing occasionally, until lightly toasted, 16 to 20 minutes.
Place mixture in a large bowl and stir in blueberries. (To store, keep in an airtight container, up to 1 month.)

Name it...

2 weeks ago I went to this headache institute in Ann Arbor and after a year of seeing all kinds of doctors in the Detroit area, they were able to diagnose my headaches. To finally have a name for what's wrong with me has been so comforting. I know it may sound silly, but not knowing what is wrong, just knowing something is terrible not right is a horrible feeling. Once you name something you can than search for the cure, the answer to the problem. I am naming things, good and bad in my life right now - loved, loving, caring, inpatient, honest, emotional, afraid, peaceful. Those are just a some of the names of characteristics living in me. An I feel comforted in knowing that all the things that aren't right have cures. Naming it, it's the first step in healing.

Happy kids

Happy kids, originally uploaded by jimrenaud.

They don't come cuter than this!

Reveal

Well I haven't blogged for sometime, and honestly I thought I was done blogging, but I keep having dreams of myself blogging and they are good dreams, so here I am blogging.
The last year has been a hard one. I've had a migraine level headache everyday since mid April 2009. The good news is I have found help and I am beginning to feel better.
I have learned a lot this year. First of all I am not as strong as I would hope, but stronger than I would have guessed. My attitude has changed towards God. I thought I was much further on trusting God than I really am. Oh and as you can see I don't mind being completely honest. I have learned that is the only way to get anywhere positive.
I also know that I can't change my own heart, so instead of working on something I can't fix I pray everyday that God will change my heart, and he is.
I have also moved out of my parent's house and am now living with two amazing women of God who are teaching me everyday what obedience and trust in God looks like. I can't say that I don't miss living with my parents, I did get used to be spoiled, and it is a nice thing. Parents don't ever worry about spoiling your kids with love too much!
So I think I have some good things to say and here is where you will find them.

Replacement

Well I have replaced blogging with knitting. I tried to knit 4 years ago and failed horribly. The problem is that as a left handed person I couldn't find a book or a person to show me well. Now I must say, thanks to You Tube I have learned to knit. Seriously. I am working on my 3rd scarf. I would like to be done with scarves, but the request keep coming in. My brother requested a pair of cashmere boxers, so that might be fun to try. No, no it won't. Anyway, I haven't given up on blogging all together, even if it is so 2004. So hopefully I will be able to balance my life more and share it on my blog.
To be continued.... when the scarf is done.....